Days Are Not Bad

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This year October is very different. I was very busy, both in job and private. In October we have school holidays. So many co-workers take holidays to spend time with their kids. I have to work. I am ok with that. It is very interesting that my pain disappeared. I almost forget that I am a childless woman.  I am asking myself how and why.  I think it may be:

- I went to run every morning. After jogging I feel very energized.
- I had to replace my colleagues and got lots of work.
- I had holidays for one week. I went hiking with friends. fresh air, trees and rivers, they make me to feel very relax. (PS: The picture above is from my hiking way. ;- For me it is a dragon.)  
- I spent 30 mins every morning for myself, wrote journal and listened calm music. I like nature sounds, bird, water, wind….
- I listened Katharina Appia’s podcast(it is German) I know Katharina from Elaine’s blog,  I lover her voice and interviews she did.  It is really like someone is talking with me, someone who understand me.  
- I keep on wearing make-up in the home office. ;-)  Yes, I really did. I want to have a normal day like before. I do not have kids. I have more time in the morning. So I can do something for myself.  
- And also very important: No one ask me if I have kids. hehehehe

All these things help me.  Sometimes it is difficult for me to do anything during my depressive time. So it is better for me to write them down.    

Dear friends, how about your October?    


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  1. Infertile PhoenixNovember 3, 2020 at 5:47 AM

    Very nice! I keep thinking to myself that I want to exercise again. I know it helps me feel better. But I haven't added it into my routine yet... I spent my October working, resting, and sewing. I'm grateful to have a job, but everything feels harder these days so I'm trying to be patient with myself. That is easier said than done. :) I really like your picture. I thought it looked like a dragon before I even read your description of it. Wishing you a lovely, safe, and healthy November!

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    1. A Different LifeNovember 3, 2020 at 12:14 PM

      Thank you, Phoenix! Happy to knnow your october is fine too. I love your quilt work. Your post motivated me to try knitting. I am trying to knitt a pullover. I am a beginner. I hope I can finish it. Stay Healthy! :-)

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  2. ElaineNovember 6, 2020 at 9:50 PM

    Dear TingTing,
    My doctor once told me that exercise is the best antidepressant. If you go for a run regularly, this is excellent not only for your body but also for your soul :-). Well done! Also, being out in nature on hikes must have lifted your spirits - it sounds lovely.
    I am intrigued that you listen to podcasts in German. How did you learn German?
    By the way, I like your dragon, too :-).
    Much love,
    Elaine

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    1. A Different LifeNovember 9, 2020 at 6:01 PM

      Hi Elaine, thank you! Workhout helps me so much! I learned German in University, and Japanese too. But I almost forget all Japanese ;-)

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