Why this blog?


To be honest I do not know.  English is not my mother tongue. I just want to write down what I am feeling. Why online? Because, except  my husband, I do not want to talk with any one abut my story of 4  unsuccessful  IVF cycles.
- I do not want to have any mercy from my friends. Yes, I am a CNBC, but it does not mean my life is less happier than theirs. Yes, it is different, but it is not bad.
- I do not let my friends thinking what/how they want to talk with me about their pregnancy or children. I do not hate friends with kids. I love to see their kid photos and go to their parties. Only one thing I do like when they complain about their chaotic days with kids. They do not know how happy they are. I always think I must be able to organize days better.  
- I do not want to be given any „nice“ but „painful“ or better to say „know nothing about, just ideas from friends“ suggestions, like „you can try that, try this….“ „you can go to other countries, it is more easier, the successful rate is very high“ ….
- I do not want to hear „ oh I envy your life without kid. You are free without any worries…..“ OMG !  Can you imagine what I am feeling to hear that?  
- I even do not want to bother my parents. At least not now. They have their problems too. I even feel to let them disappointed because they could never be grandparents.   
- ………… many reasons, I have forgotten some…… ;-)  

But I want to share this with unknown people who really understand my situation. I read some blogs and found they have known many friends online and exchange thoughts and motivate each other. I hope I could also get some too.  Do you think I can get to know people here? 


  1. Dear Ting Xu,
    Congratulations on setting up your own blog and a warm welcome to the blogosphere!
    I am very sorry to read that treatment didn't work out for you as planned. You are certainly not alone in this - there are many more of us out there. The CNBC community consists of wonderful bloggers all around the world. I look forward to reading more from you!
    Much love,

  2. Elaine told me about your blog.... so I wanted to welcome you in our community. I am looking forward to reading more from you.
    lots of love from sLOVEnia,

    1. Hi Klara, thank you so much. You are so nice. I read all your posts and feel very motivated.

  3. Hello. Welcome to the lovely blogging community who write about not being able to have children. As Elaine said, there are bloggers from all over the world, coming from different countries, cultures, languages, and situations. I am from NZ. We are very very sorry you had to join us - but glad that you found us. Take good care of yourself.

  4. I understand that you don't want to discuss this with your real life friends and family. It is very hard, and many people don't understand. There is a safety on the internet. We can be anonymous. We can use other names. And we can say exactly how we feel, without worrying about what other people might think. As a friend once said to me, we get to know each other from the inside out. Because we understand. We have experienced a lot of the same things. We know. I look forward to reading your posts. Feel free to visit me at No Kidding in NZ blog.

    1. Thank you Mali!!!! I do not know how express myself. I just want to say 1000 Thank You! It is really hard to have no one to talk about what I went through. I do love your post "Ten Ways the Childless Limit their Environmental Impact". It is so lovely and makes me to feel happy. :-)

    2. I'm glad it helped! I have a question. Would you mind if I added your blog to my list of Other No Kidding Bloggers which are on my blogroll?

  5. Hello & welcome! I found out about your blog on Klara's blog. :) I know how comforting it is to find people in a similar situation who understand, and there are more and more of us speaking out about childless living all the time. You are not alone!

    1. Thank you so much!!!! I have read your blogs since serval days. I love it so much! I hope I can be strong as you in some days. And I love theatre popcorn too. I bought popcorn and wachted a movie at home after I read "Right Now". ;-)


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