You Do Not Need A Baby

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I am reading some blogs which held by lovely women. I cried when I read their sad stories. I imagined we gave us each other a big hug. And I said „Yes, I know, I know that pain.“ I decided to start to have my own blog. I got a big warm welcome from Elaine, Klara, Mali, Phoenix and Loribeth. I got many positive energy from your blogs. Thank you for your great blogs!  

Yesterday I met my prof.  She is a brilliant woman. I like her so much. She is in her 70’s and still teaching at university.  I told her my sad story. Do you know what she said?  
„ You do not need a baby!“ 

 She does not have kids either. I asked her if she felt lonely. „Never, I have many friends. There are many organizations which help childless seniors. Never scarred to get older. „  She answered.
She told me her story. When she was young, it was important for her to be successful in career. She got her lawyer license in her late 30’s. The separation with her ex followed then.  She was not young when she found her current partner. She told me „Children like young mothers. I know that from my students. Young teachers are always popular. So I decide to stay childfree.“  

I do not know if there is a sad story behind it. But I see a woman who is very happy now.

Actually there are many women without kids around me. I was just blind and focused on my medical treatments so much. I did not feel they are around me. In the office I know at least two co-workers without kids. I have some homosexual friends, also without, in my family too. Everywhere….   



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  1. Infertile PhoenixSeptember 13, 2020 at 8:02 PM

    It's okay. You have to focus on the medical treatments when you are doing them. That's the only way to get through them. I didn't see a lot during that time period of my life, but I used what energy I had to just get through each day. <3

    I really like what your professor said. It is simple and profound: "You do not need a baby!"

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    1. A Different LifeSeptember 14, 2020 at 8:08 PM

      Life is beautiful like that woman said https://infertilephoenix.blogspot.com/2018/08/beautiful-life.html

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  2. loribethSeptember 14, 2020 at 7:45 PM

    (((Hugs))) back at you! Your mention made my day. :)

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  3. MaliSeptember 21, 2020 at 2:58 AM

    Oops, I've been slow with my reading. I'm so glad you have been warmly welcomed. That's why we all blog!

    This is a lovely story. Once we stop treatments/adoption proceedings etc, we realise how many role models we have. I am glad you feel less alone now.

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    1. A Different LifeSeptember 26, 2020 at 8:29 PM

      Thank you Mali. Bloging make me feeling better. I am so glad to know you all.

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  4. ElaineSeptember 26, 2020 at 10:52 AM

    I am glad that you don't feel as alone anymore as in the beginning. It was the same for me: first I thought I was the only one who couldn't have kids. All my friends seemed to fall pregnant! Then, after the deepest grief was behind me, I realized there are many more of us, also in the real world, not only online.

    This is wonderful, that you have such a good role model in your professor. We don't always know the full story, but we don't always need to either. It is helpful enough to see that other women who don't have children are happy :-).

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    1. A Different LifeSeptember 26, 2020 at 8:41 PM

      It really help me to see happy women without kids. Sometimes I feel sad because even I did not realize there are so many great women around me without kids. I mean I feel no one really cares about us.....

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    2. ElaineOctober 14, 2020 at 6:22 PM

      Yes, it does feel this way, doesn't it, especially in the beginning. But I do think we take good care of each other in our little CNBC community... and I think that is worth a lot <3.

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