Busy and Happy

-

I was busy last two weeks. In my company we began a new project. There are lots of work and new things to learn.  I also met some friends who I haven’t seen since Covid come. It helped me so much to move my focus more on myself and people who I like and love. The IVFs make me crazy, depressive and isolated.  It is not healthy. I need to change. I used to wake up early and spend  about 1 hour to read books, learn something, do workout, make my to-do list, enjoy my coffee…  These things disappeared during IVFs.  Side effects made me to stay on the bed for more than 2 weeks. I  could only eat a little. Then I had to deal with downs. I need to go back to daily routine. They are the things which make me to feel peaceful and happy.  

 

I went to run this morning. I feel so good. It was sunny, birds was singing and even cars stopped to let me cross the street.  I took some photos of flowers to share with you. They are so lovely, aren’t they? 




Summer is gone. I am afraid the pandemic will get worse in the Winter. I really like  Phoenix’s post „Feeling Gaslit Again“.  Wearing masks could not help to stop the covid, but it can help to slow it down. It is primarily to protect others to wear masks. I feel sad that many people do not understand that. WHY? Do they think it is weakness to wear masks? 
 
 


Comments

  1. MaliSeptember 27, 2020 at 1:47 AM

    The flowers are beautiful! And I'm glad you are able to be yourself again.

    I also do not understand people who don't want to wear masks.

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Contact Form

Name

Email *

Message *

Popular posts from this blog

Why this blog?

-
Image
  To be honest I do not know.  English is not my mother tongue. I just want to write down what I am feeling. Why online? Because, except  my husband, I do not want to talk with any one abut my story of 4  unsuccessful  IVF cycles. - I do not want to have any mercy from my friends. Yes, I am a CNBC, but it does not mean my life is less happier than theirs. Yes, it is different, but it is not bad. - I do not let my friends thinking what/how they want to talk with me about their pregnancy or children. I do not hate friends with kids. I love to see their kid photos and go to their parties. Only one thing I do like when they complain about their chaotic days with kids. They do not know how happy they are. I always think I must be able to organize days better.   - I do not want to be given any „nice“ but „painful“ or better to say „know nothing about, just ideas from friends“ suggestions, like „you can try that, try this….“ „you can go to other countries, it is m...
Read more

My Aunt called

-
My aunt called me today. We had a very nice video talk. I also got the picture of her grandchild. He is cute. After our call, she sent me a message. She does not want others to know (my cousins could hear us.). She would like to take me to a medical treatment. So I could get pregnant. That made me to remember a very funny thing many years ago. She bought me some „magical soups“ to loose weight ,when I was a little girl. I was really fat, about 70 kg. I told her about my 4 unsuccessful IVF. She is the first one in my family who knows my sad story. I do not know if my husband told some one. But she is the first one I told.  She wrote me she cried. She felt guilty that she was so concentrated on her family. She did not have time for me. She think I am very brave to do IVF alone. I think she mean no one in the family could support me. She is very proud of me. I never thought I need some one from the family. Why?  Because I do not want they worry about me. I always want they are pr...
Read more

You Do Not Need A Baby

-
Image
  I am reading some blogs which held by lovely women. I cried when I read their sad stories. I imagined we gave us each other a big hug. And I said „Yes, I know, I know that pain.“ I decided to start to have my own blog. I got a big warm welcome from Elaine, Klara , Mali , Phoenix and Loribeth . I got many positive energy from your blogs. Thank you for your great blogs!   Yesterday I met my prof.  She is a brilliant woman. I like her so much. She is in her 70’s and still teaching at university.  I told her my sad story. Do you know what she said?   „ You do not need a baby!“   She does not have kids either. I asked her if she felt lonely. „Never, I have many friends. There are many organizations which help childless seniors. Never scarred to get older. „  She answered. She told me her story. When she was young, it was important for her to be successful in career. She got her lawyer license in her late 30’s. The separation with her ex followed th...
Read more